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From the Archive: Obsession

NOTE: THIS REVIEW CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR THE FILM

Obsession (film)

Seen May 17, 2026

Holy shit what a movie. Strong contender so far for my favorite film of the year.

The premise is simple: A man purchases a “one wish willow,” a novelty item advertising a one time wish when broken. The main character, Bear, purchases one as a gesture for his crush, Nikki. After his attempts to connect with her are self-sabotaged, he wishes she would love him more than anyone in the world.

Immediately, his wish is granted, and all Nikki wants to do is spend time w/ him. He is excited at first & everything goes smoothly. She loves him. She Loves Him. SHE LOVES HIM.

It’s clear the whole time Bear knows that something is off. early on, he asks her if she loves him more than anyone else & she confirms. He still fucks her. It’s not until her behavior becomes erratic – watching him sleep, duct-taping the door shut, making him lunch from his dead cat – that he says something. He begs her to be normal. Not herself. He just wants her to love him and not be strange.

It becomes increasingly clear that whatever force is puppeting Nikki’s body is not Nikki. The real Nikki breaks through at times, screaming after kissing bear, slicing her face with a broken bottle, and eventually, heartbreakingly, begging Bear to end her suffering and kill her. He responds to her last attempt to reach out to him by accusingly asking her what is terrible about being with him, before abandoning her alone in the dark to talk to another woman.

The ending is as violent as one might expect & ends with Nikki returning to her body after Bear dies in her arms, knowing she has murdered two of their close friends.

It is a raw and realistic look at the way “nice guys” often do not actually see the true value in the women they lust after. In the beginning, Bear speaks about the emotional support & care Nikki has given him, but does not care about that once he has full access to her body. At one point, he calls customer service for the One Wish Willow, and hears Nikki screaming. He knows she is in constant torment and still does not care about her enough to change anything about the arrangement.

From the archive posts are ones written primarily for myself. They come from my journal, my notes app, or just essays written on the computer. I’ve decided I want to be better about sharing my writing, so I hope you enjoyed it.

Life, uhhh, gets in the way

I was planning to write in this blog much more often, but some stuff happened. Some of it was personal, some of it was my home being occupied by a federal force.

But the sun is out and so am I. It’s almost pride month, and it’s time to discuss what’s going on.

I got to serve on a jury last month. I expected to spend a day or two in court, but ended up serving for a civil trial that lasted two weeks. The case made the news, and was brought by the lawyers who were the first to make Alex Jones pay financially for his lies about Sandyhook.

This case was regarding the same type of vehicle and issue that caused Anton Yelchin’s accident. The plaintiff’s car rolled back on him at a gas station when he thought he put it in park, the front door catching on a bollard in front of a gas tank. The car rolled over his leg, causing injuries that would later cause the lower portion of his leg to be amputated.

It was a gruesome two weeks. The last day of the trial, the defense showed us an image of his leg’s injury, and it was so gruesome I’m still thinking about it. They showed us X-ray images before, and those were enough for me.

At the end of the day, the jury ruled in favor of the plaintiff, and awarded over $18 million dollars. That’s such a huge amount to be a part of and I am actually proud of the work I did with my fellow jurors.

I was bursting to talk about the trial the entire time it was happening, but now I’m allowed to talk about it and it feels much less interesting. We could not even discuss the trial with our fellow jurors until it was over.

I feel like I blinked, and now it’s basically Pride month. I’m excited to go to events this year. I feel a lot more connected with the queer events going on. Hopefully I will get to a point where I have enough time and energy to volunteer. But even just going has been great.

My little sister came to visit recently which was a great time. We got to go to a drag king show with the fiance and some other friends, which was incredible fun.

Other than that, I’ve been focusing on keeping myself grounded and whole. I’ve been doing a lot of reading, listening to music, and playing video games, so posts on those should be forthcoming.

The fiance and I have been watching ER, which has been a trip. The ’90s feel so far back. Which, thinking about it, me watching ER is the same as my parents watching shows from the 60’s when I was a kid, so it may actually be that far back. So many issues with healthcare we see today were already a problem back then, but it’s also amazing to see the advancements we’ve had. Just the difference in treatment options for AIDs patients between seasons 1 and 5 are staggering.

So, yeah, this is basically a post to say hello, I’m alive, I haven’t forgotten about this, and I’m planning to post more soon. Stay tuned.

introductory post

If you’re seeing this, I want to stay connected with you (unless you got the link through nefarious means). I want this to be a space where I can share my life in a semi-public forum and keep people who are interested in the loop of what is going on with me.

I am tired of working hard to make connections with people only to have to leave because the whiny billionaire who runs the company decides it’s fine for people to harass me based on my identity. Even though the people I interacted with in those spaces are chill, I don’t want to support those companies

If you’re not someone who checks blogs regularly, I’m going to try to figure out how to set up email alerts! I’m also considering creating a discord group to send alerts for this blog. If that would be easier for you, let me know!

I’m not looking for this blog to blow up. I just want a space to connect with the people I’ve met over my life and keep in touch while keeping Zuck and Musk’s sticky fingers out.

I’m also getting tired of microblogging and having to break all my thoughts up into digestible chunks.

If you don’t have my contact outside of facebook, email me at haremenot@proton.me. We can communicate there, or I can give you my chat, signal or texting. Feel free to comment on this site too.

I’m hoping to post some of my projects, media reviews, and just what I’ve been up to. If anything interests you, please reach out and we can talk about it.

I know how hard it can be for me to stay in touch sometimes with people I care about because we’re just busy and it’s hard to keep track of what’s going on in people’s lives. Now you’ll know, and we can chat about it. If you have a blog or place you’ve been posting stuff, I would also love to see that.